Monday, July 4, 2011

musings of an 'almost mother'

Here I sit in my last few days of pregnancy.  
These have by far been the hardest, because I am so full of anticipation!  I sit and think that any moment I could go into labor.  Sometimes I am scared it will happen that very day.  But most mornings I wake up disappointed that it didn't happen that night.  

I've been focusing so much on the "firsts" in my life for the past nine months...first pregnancy...first ultrasound...first baby movements...but in the past few days I had a sudden bout of focusing on the "lasts," such as:
The last date hubby and I will have without needing a sitter.
The last Sunday I will have completely to myself.
Our last days as "you and me" 
soon to be 
you and me and baby make three!
{four if you count the pup}

Hubby seemed rather unfazed by the dramatic fact that our lives are about to change forever.  He just looked at me stated matter-of-factly, "Didn't we decide this nine months ago?"
I, however, burst into tears over it, blubbering:
"But, but...I didn't think it would go by so fast!"

Truly the fastest nine months of my life.
As well as the slowest last days
of pregnancy.

I'm trying to focus more on enjoying these final days,
before baby and
before I turn thirty!

One way to pass the time?
I painted these clay pots 
turquoise and chalkboard black
to go on our patio,
and planted blue bellflowers, daisies and sunflowers.

Pretty soon flowers {oh, a husband, and a dog} won't be the only things I'm growing and caring for!

Happy 4th of July...
Enjoy every moment!


  1. We're all anxious for u too G and elated!!

    Enjoy these "lasts" <3 your world is about to be rocked!

  2. I'm so excited for you! And enjoy your sleep!!!! Honestly, it isn't as bad as everyone makes it out to be (if you have a good baby). You just get used to less sleep. I remember the last month....sloooooooooow. Plan on having baby a week late, then if it comes early, you are pleasantly surprised!

  3. Beautiful photos!

    You sound like me... almost 30 before my first... suddenly smacked with "the lasts"...

    Gonna email you with answer to your question - I am so excited for you!

  4. You are more focused on the changes it will make in your life, because your life is going to change more than Paul's life. I know Paul will be a great father, but I also know that many aspects of his life will remain the same/ very few things in your life will be the same for a very long time. I don't want this to sound negative. There is no greater gift than a child and nothing has brought me more joy than being a Mom. The last few days of pregnancy are the hardest. You are in my prayers.

  5. Well, only about 4 days left, and I know you are anxious. Just enjoy your time right now because once the baby comes, then you will be busy. These will be the good times. Your hubby will always be by your side, and remember you can always have a date night, but right now is one of the most precious times in both your lives.


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